Explorers in Love

There was a distinct click behind him, one that had become familiar in the past week and a half. Watt looked over his shoulder, spying Cornelius looking a tad sheepish behind his camera. Three times now Cornelius had taken his photo, having asked before the first time if he had Watt’s permission to take candid shots.

Watt rather thought that him brooding in a hotel room was a waste of film, and was surprised to find himself saying so.

Cornelius chuckled. “Every explorer needs a good before and after photo, you know, before they’re beaten to hell by their perils.”

“Then what were the photographs on the ship for?”

“Practice,” Cornelius said. There was an easy air about him this morning, which Watt was grateful for. He wasn’t sure if he could handle prickly Cornelius today.

Watt straightened from the wall, extending a hand towards Cornelius. “Then you should have a before photo as well, yeah?”

Cornelius cleared his throat. “Oh. I suppose so.”

Moody Before the Perils illustrations by Gagakuma Draws! This scene is one of the early icebreaker like scenes with the fellas, and stuck out to us both of us when it came to Cornelius’ photographs. Their postures and expressions speak so much to their inner turmoils during the beginning. Watt wears his heart on his sleeve, while Cornelius hides everything behind that proud mask. And of course, this beautiful and romantic moment between the explorers.

He kept hearing Andrea’s words over and over again, followed by Severino’s distant plea from weeks ago. He hadn’t meant to eavesdrop either time, but last night had been the final nail in Watt’s heart. “They’re doing good work here, real work. I can go on alone. This isn’t—I won’t drag you into madness, Cornelius.”

Cornelius closed the small distance between them, slow enough to give Watt time to back away. He did not.

Cornelius gazed up at Watt, their chests inches apart. His steely eyes seemed to glitter in the dark, like Lake Michigan under full moonlight. “I made a promise, and I intend to keep it.”

“Aventurier,” Watt whispered, overcome with an intense desire to bend down, and kiss Cornelius.

He—he wanted to kiss Cornelius.

He wanted Cornelius.

Cornelius’ eyes flared and he lifted his chin a fraction of an inch, lips parting.

Oh, and he was wanted in return. He was wanted by, and wanted, a man. Not just any man, but his—his Cornelius. He wanted to. It could’ve been easy, should’ve been easy.

But no matter how much he wanted to, Watt could not break through that wall. It would shatter everything, demolishing the foundations of everything they had built in the last few months. And he couldn’t—he wasn’t—

Cornelius’ lips curled into a small, sad smile. Like he knew. And he probably did, because who else knew Watt better than this man?

His best friend. Because yes, that was what Cornelius was to him, now and always.

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There are now 94 backers! Hello to all of you, and thank you so much for supporting this campaign. We only have 22 hours left, then it’s time for Kickstarter to do its thing so I can do my thing and order books, stickers, bookmarks, art prints, all that good stuff to pass onto you. With all of the new art that has come out seen the Kickstarter began, don’t be surprised if there are extra goodies in the adventure boxes.

whispers: Do you think we can reach an even 100 backers?

Big thanks to Gagakuma Draws for drawing the gay explorers in love!

Hitting Stretch Goals and Tugging Heartstrings

The Voice of Wild Places poster illustrated by Benedetta Massaro

Thank you to everyone who has backed the Kickstarter, it is now fully funded ! 

Not only that, but we have hit our first stretch goal, a short story that takes place after The Voice of Wild Places, and there is a chance we may reach the second one, a special edition hardback!

Despite my Big Feelings about all this love for the Kickstarter, I have already set to work on the short story, it feels so good to be with these characters again. Yes, I know we haven’t been separated for that long, but it still feels like coming home.

Speaking of coming home, I wanted to take a moment to talk about the Adventures in Levena books, which some people added to your pledge. It is cozy season after all, which is what these books feel like. There is some angst as characters heal and face the past, but they are overwhelming wholesome and romantic.

Arlo Rook, art by trxxvon_ on IG
Thatch Phantom, art by trxxvon_ on IG
Lindsey and Kitt, illustrated by Benedetta Massaro
Quentin and Elochian, illustrated by Foxglove Faun

There are currently two novels and two novellas out, each book follows a different couple. The first novella has multiple perspectives, and an interesting first half that technically takes place after all the books. It’s an immortal thing, you know?

The third book, Mochizuki and Xlato, comes out in October of next year. Illustrated by Crossroad Art, the same artist who we hopefully will have for the special hardback of The Voice of Wild Places!

Mochizuki and Xlato, illustrated by Crossroad Art
Archeon, illustrated by Crossroad Art
Proteus, illustrated by Crossroad Art

You can find out more about the series here.

I can’t wait to order prints, bookmarks, stickers, and wield my new highlighter and pens to go full historical nerd mode for annotating time. Not to mention signing and/or painting the books themselves.

The Tale of Epiphany and Qoresis

I first wrote this story for the Rainbow Crate winter anthology, and now I’m able to share it. Here’s a sneak peek, you can check out the full thing on Patreon.

In most places, eldest children wore the metaphorical burden of sacrifice with a begrudging sort of pride. But in the frostbitten woods of Savasby Peaks, the youngest children were true sacrifices, and pride was worn like a medal of honor. Not all children in this unforgiving stretch of mountains and snow were subject to such a fate, only those of a royal lineage. Or the closest thing a remote village had to such things.

Unfortunately for Epiphany Theriault, he made for the perfect gift to an unappeasable god. Undeniably royal, and full of star dust.

Epiphany sat tall upon his mount, an enormous dregtzal with a dappled gray coat that was so long, he could bury his arms up to his shoulders in its fur. The beast followed the others in the convoy with vague interest, traversing through the man-deep snow with ease. The thick wool of Epiphany’s cloak rubbed back and forth across his nose, and he longed to pull the fabric up over his eyes, to block out the blizzard and his impending end. Despite his family’s optimism, Epiphany had no reason to believe he’d survive this, especially when no other sacrificial lamb had.

Epiphany has known he would die young since he was old enough to understand truth and legend, lies and myth. He simply accepted it as fact then, more gracious and noble than any before him. He didn’t cry and shy away from his purpose when he was a child, and did his best not to now. He wiped away a few escaped tears before they could freeze onto his cheeks, then lifted his chin against the storm.

Epiphany assumed Gods loved the taste of fear, and he would not give Qoresis that satisfaction, only his life. And then his people would survive for another decade, feasting on his blood, flesh, and sinew the same as if they were God of the Mountain themself, slurping fat and provisions from his marrow, gold and knowledge from his cranium. He wondered if Qoresis had ever eaten a God’s Star before, and what the dust in his blood may glean for his people.

Meet the Author

🧭 The Author Behind the Book 🧭

Over the years, I’ve done a few different meet the author type posts. I could tell you all again that my stories have threads of found family, fighting oppression, and finding love in all its vast forms. Mental illness and disability representation are also very important to me, and exist in my stories in one form or another.

I could also tell you I’m one of the hosts on an indie author podcast called Right Here, Write Queer. I love self publishing, and will always be team human. Team real creativity, and community, and supporting each other.

And I could also tell you that every week I try to share book queer recommendations, and I’m more active on Bluesky and Tumblr than anywhere else. I have a Patreon where I share writing excerpts, resources for authors, and first looks at new art.

But as of late, there’s something else I’d like to tell you.

I am not going anywhere.

I am a queer millennial who lives, and writes, in the mountainous rural arms of Upstate NY. And nothing will stop me from writing, reading, and sharing queer stories.

All while spilling coffee left and right, pins and crystals falling out of my bag as I go. Maybe even a scrap paper or two.

July Reads

July Reads. An Unseen Attraction by KJ Charles. The Black Mage. The Voice of Wild Places by Noah Hawthorne.
July Reads. The Wolf At The Door by Charlie Adhara. The Wolf At Bay by Charlie Adhara. Damaged by Onley James. The Secret Lives of Country Gentlemen by KJ Charles. The Nobeleman's Guide to Seducing a Scoundrel by KJ Charles. Viscounts and Villainy by Allie Therin.

I’m pretty proud of myself, only … most of these were rereads. Ah, well. When the serotonin is low, you gotta do what you gotta do.

I did read The Voice of Wild Places in paperback version, and it was so great to read it ‘as a book.’ Viscounts and Villainy was a great conclusion to the series, if not a little repetitive with how much they were gushing about each other. They deserve it.

An Unseen Attraction was so fun, an unusual take on historical fiction aka taxidermy in the late 1800s and all the weirdness that comes with it.

What a Shot

When I first proposed the idea of a Kickstarter, my wonderful artist friends (lovingly) attacked me with art, and they both had the idea of illustrating the photographs that Cornelius takes during their trip. This first one is by Benedetta Massaro, and features Cornelius, Watt, and Severino on the steamer.

Cornelius frequently took shots from the edge of the boat, but of the photographic variety. He focused on people, always incorporating them into the surrounding landscape. On the last day of the trip, he’d taken a photograph of Watt and Severino standing together at the front of the boat, hats on and inches between them.

Watt felt wrong standing there without Cornelius in the picture, and after Cornelius took the shot he called a fellow passenger over to assist with the problem. Cornelius’ face reddened, but he offered the fellow his camera and quickly explained how to use it. He joined them and stood between Watt and Severino, adjusting his hat before tucking his hands into his pockets. He nodded to Severino, then shot Watt a withering look.

“How typical for the photographer not to like having his photo taken,” Watt murmured, fighting a grin.

“It’s just a very valuable piece of equipment,” Cornelius shot back, quiet and whip-quick. Despite his tone, his lip curled upwards. They stared at each other for a moment, then Cornelius winked and turned his attention forward. Watt looked at the camera too, unable to stop smiling.

Gondor Calls for Aid

  • Gondor calls for aid book recs. The Unbroken by C.L. Clark. Iron Widow by Xiran Jay Zhao. Reclaimed by Seth Haddon. Godkiller by Hannah Kaner. Unbroken Edited by Marieke Nijkamp. To Cage a God by Elizabeth May.
  • Gondor calls for aid book recs. Stars in their Eyes by Jessica Walton and Aska. Sword Dance by A.J. Demas. Nimona by ND Stevenson. Sixteen Souls by Rosie Talbot. The Undetectables by Courtney Smyth. The Flying Ship by Jem Milton.

And prosthetics, wheelchairs, and canes shall answer.

Mobility can be affected by a number of things, and the range at which it can be affected is vast. Some people are totally reliant on their aides, while others can be ambulatory for a time or partially ambulatory.

I think there’s a pretty good mix here, but feel free to shout out your favorites.

Historical Goods

Tomorrow is Kickstarter Day! To celebrate, I thought I’d show off some paraphernalia I’ve acquired over the years to connect with these characters and the world they lived in.

The matchbook is the first item I collected, and the brochure is the second. The newspaper clipping is one I obtained later on, but all three have to do with the Furness Prince Line.

For books most are for research, but others were for vibes or setting. Not pictured is Into the Amazon: The Life of Cândido Rondon by Larry Rohter, which I have in ebook.

Cornelius’ camera, a Kodak Eastman No. 2C Autographic edition. Mine is awfully rough shape, but when I stumbled upon it in a local thrift store I knew it was meant to be. Cornelius’ is a little bit different, his has the red bellows.

A postcard from the Butantan Institute in São Paulo, where antivenin was developed and our characters witness the process, and its effects.

Lastly, a Camillus pocket knife. Watt carries a Camillus TL-29, which is an electrician’s knife. This is not a TL-29, but it is a well aged electrician’s knife like the one he would’ve used, and from the same company.